Why am I afraid of things going well?
Things are going well at church, life at home is busy and complicated yet good in a more profound way than I can explain, and I have Caitlyn as this little bundle of hope and joy running around making me happy. Is it something just with me that I am waiting for another shoe to drop?
The weirdest thing is, I think that it’s theological in nature. I have seen too many ministries which have become stale and comfortable and have therefore become passe and have vanished or at least diminished to the point of vanishing and now that I think about it I have seen marriages and families in the same predicament, I guess that I fear success because it is so-o-o-o-o-o-o seductive to try and never deviate from what got you here and then not realizing that you are going there.
I think this just makes it a great time to gather up my strength, bolstered by good times and happiness, and see what we can do next. What challenges face us in ministry and how can we get there? What can Debbie and I do to make our lives together even better? What can we do to keep Caitlyn growing up the way she is, confident, secure, loving, trusting, capable?
That’s my word for the day, a question this time. What’s next? What can we do better tomorrow than we did today? What can we try tomorrow that we were too afraid to try today? How can we embody Christ tomorrow that is more meaningful than what we have been doing lately?
“the renewing of your senses” sez Paul.
gimme some of THAT!
blessings, Tim
